Friday, July 21, 2017

The unspoken fantasies



What would you think of me if you knew my fantasy of you going down on your knees eating my pussy?

What would you think of me if you knew I was thinking of wearing my six inch heels and a silky lace silhouette as I sit and ride you all night

What would you think of me if you knew how many times I imagined how you undress me on the beach and penetrate me deep as the ocean whistles nearby

I even go as far as seeing you handle me roughly, bend me over to your will… I cross my legs firmly as I can almost feel you grope my breasts and toy with my nipples…

My clit throbs at the anticipation of grapping your biceps as their mould turns me on, I lick my lips as I can almost come at the thought of you entering my wetness- I even see the smirk you carry as you have me beg you to enter me.

I shudder as I fantasise your soft moist lips touch mine....and just like that I etch marks of lust and desire deep down the smooth surface that seems to shield me.

Your mouth leaves mine exploring my ear, your sharp teeth chewing on its lobe- Deep raspy voice breathing loud- hair covering your face as you hold tight on my hips, simultaneously I grip tight on your ass imposing your thrust again and again-  then my thighs draw closer together as I come loudly moaning

I wonder what you would think of me if you knew my fantasy.

By: Linda RM Baumann
21 July 2017

15h00

Monday, June 12, 2017

My memory of Meeting Tatekulu Andimba Toivo Ya Toivo


I must say I have been fortunate all my life to have been surrounded by great leaders in my community... A community that has exposed me to so much political, social and economic diversity in growth and development.

My name is Linda Magano Baumann, a young girl who grew up in the dusty streets of owambo location... A neighbourhood that firmly had us all as one because our parents worked as a collective and believed in community disciplining yet a lot of great memories have remained as values in our lives.

Upon receiving the notice of Tatekulu- there was this collective of many of us wandering the street to confirm... And upon reflection on the silence and further no movement from our neighbour's home - Meme Ester Shikongo -- who is sister to Tatekulu... the news came through that he is indeed gone. this had us all walk back to our spaces and there it was, silence...

As I grew up partly in their home, I also had an experience of having been told stories by Kuku mother to Tatekulu Ya Toivo. In those moments Meme Ester would contextualize the story as Kuku was very old and if my memory serves me well she was in her early 90s.

In 1990 and until this day I remember Tatekulu Ya Toivo used to visit Meme Ester with his convoy of vehicles parked outside- with so much security all over, however over the years the number of cars and security reduced until he would only come with one car.

As we used to play in the street and his car (s) drove down the road we all stood still watching the protocol of his door being opened – as he would emerge from the car he would look up the road left and then right again as the house is right in the centre of the street. He would look at us and in that very moment our voices would simultaneously say "Uugrapo Tatekulu" and he would smile and say “ja ja - play play every day.  You must read your books so that you can stop playing in the sand and have good roads” then we all would go “yes Sir!” he would laugh and say "Look at you all young, beautiful mara I know I can run the fastest- don't be fooled by my grey hair" we would all laugh as he continued into the house for his visit...

I also have memories of him visiting my mother - and as he walked in he would say - "Hello- hello, waar is Baumann?" My mom would respond from the other end saying "Hey Toivo- wat soek jy in my huis? - he would respond "Baumann jy sal niks se nie- dis my huis ook" and then they both would laugh and go into their own world of bonding...

Over the years I heard his life story from many Stalwarts, family members and the country at large... I have experienced Tatekulu at a personal level and at an intellectual level as he mastered his tales of engagement.

His departure has torn so much within me as his personality, his energy and charismatic firm position in all his actions have shaped, crafted and structured so much in my life. Today I know that the wife, children, family, friends and the nation at large shed a tear and feel the pain because he is no more with us however what remains significant is his role in many of our lives and his memory that is filled with a legacy that only a Great Legend has lived and shared.  

I can only celebrate his life within this moment of sadness as this hollow feeling shall be filled with all those lessons which are a reminder that we are all bigger and better in everything we do.

May your SOUL rest in eternity and POWER...


By: Linda RM Baumann
12 June 2017
17h49




Thursday, May 4, 2017

My Cassinga


Cassinga a day to reflect and wonder- how the women and children of our nation became collateral damage to a regime so set out to own power.

 A regime set up much like this outdated patriarchal government- one that makes me interpret the struggles we face in this very moment.

The injuries and lives taken on this day -has me realise that the blood that watered our freedom flowed from our women and children, who remain within this new dispensation as vulnerable to our government as the system still needs to go a long way for women to feel their entitlement of socio-economic development and political rights and  broadly welcomed within their own motherland.

That welcome that echoes the power within a child and a woman. The power that leads praise and great acknowledgement that this day is a reminder that we shall never face a rhetoric that would harm our people Again.
That welcome into power, welcome into leadership and innovation, as the creativity we possess reaches far beyond our imagination.

Yet we struggle, we struggle to protect those who continue to suffer at the hands of society... Women being murdered while our rulers drag to find evidence. Children left out on the streets because society sees no place where they belong...


By: Linda RM Baumann
04 May 2016
17h53

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Survivor or Victim


Many “who know” would consider the words Victim and Survivor to have a very thin line of difference between them. Others find them interchangeable, as the meanings of these words are futile to those who wear the labels heavily from their necks. 

The word Victim, we wear when we are harmed or injured or even killed, a Victim we remain when we feel helpless and passive in the face of misfortune or ill-treatment.

A word I believe we own only through the process of violation-
Then we get to the word Survivor, an encouraging and resilient word that is worn by only those who view themselves to exist even after an event that could have killed or destroyed them, a word I believe we only truly own after managing to continue a successful life despite the bad experiences.

These words are as distinct in action as placing yourself in either corner to prove a life or death circumstance. And so we chose how we wear our labels of victimization and survival… who then constitutes to be called either, who defines the explanation given to those “who don’t know”…

By: Linda RM Baumann
02 May 2017

09h13