Monday, June 22, 2015

Twists

My body twists and turns.. my body heats up and cools down at the utter of your name..

Your interest in my inner soul no longer remain a priority
Privacy settings chain the essence of my heart...

Many times I look and see darkness but your light I refuse to follow- I refuse to give you reason to feel your light will warm me

Hit my head I will- once maybe even 3 times.
Lose my mind I might - but to wonder into your clueless dungeon I reject..

Out In the cold my heart I put away as to not freeze it to standstill
Gathering my thoughts on how best my life suits me
Guiding myself through storms and hurricane

I will bruise, I will bleed, I will fall sick but never will I break down..mediocre my vocabulary disowns- my cognitive suggests strength and self love- all of which I place neatly beside my heart.. watching it absorb and retain...

Yes I got pick up and tossed down  I got up and wiped the dust out my eyes... grey I see no more.. back and white coloured in and sharpened - I see clear, I plan to conquer this mountain I have climbed.. I plan to see it through

So that when I hear u speak I can jump with no safety net and know I will land on my feet- your life line I let go of and smile as u try and catch me... I will land on my feet I, will be unharmed - the umbilical cord cut- puppet strings ripped and harness untied.

My lost sleep

 I keep tossing and turning at night, I know I'm asleep but I also know I am awake Exhausted I feel as I wake to start the day Because I...